We spent most of 2014 with Owl, then in June 2015 we packed up our things and drove to Saskatchewan for work.
I got the call in August that Owl was very ill and I booked my flight home on that same night. There was no way I was not going to be there to hold her close and say goodbye. Unfortunately both of us couldn’t make it, so sadly Cody stayed back to hear all of the news from afar.
Owl had an infection through her whole body, the doctor could only find one kidney, and she was suffering from chronic kidney disease. She was peeing the bed every night, and was in a lot of discomfort. The doctor said there was a very small chance of her making it.
Amy, the founder of PAWS, recommended she be put on fluids right away, as did our good friend Toni, a vet nurse. Luckily, the doctor allowed me to bring the fluids home and administer them myself everyday. It was clear that she felt better as soon as her body absorbed the fluids, and she even ate on her own a few times. The purpose of the liquids were to stabilize her and make her feel much more comfortable.
Unfortunately they did not completely stabilize her and she still had a hard time finding a comfortable way to sit and lay, always fidgeting around.
She slept all day, and also urinated outside in the backyard instead of going inside to the litter.
I spent every waking hour with Owl for four days straight. Every morning she would get fluids, and antibiotics with her food. She was weak, but not weak enough to let me know that she wanted to be outside in nature. I laid on the grass with her as she sat in the warmth of the sun.
I massaged her ears and even sang her songs. I held her close to me as she set her head on my shoulder or squished up against the side of my face, and just purred.
I comforted her, and she comforted me.
On her last day, she was laying out in the shade when I tried to get her up to feed her.
She stood up and then fell over and it stopped my heart. I feared that she would start suffering from that point on, and it hurt me so much to think that she would be in pain.
I picked her up and put her in her cat bed, and called my Mom to tell her it was time.
She slept comfortably for hours, and when my Mom arrived we scooped her up in her cat bed and headed to the animal hospital. The doctor took her away to insert a catheter in her little arm, and then set her back in her bed.
We hugged her, kissed her, and told her we loved her countless times.
The doctor then put her under, and we said goodbye again and again until we gave the go ahead to euthanize. We were left alone with Owl as we wept and felt a deep loss.
There will never be enough time spent saying goodbye.
I still hug my pillow, sobbing, and pretending that it is Owl.
She was a beautiful being deserving of life and love as much as any one of us on this planet.
She will always be in our hearts as she touched them so deeply.
We love you Owl. You made our lives better just for being.
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